Diary -- 14 July 2012Saturday, 14th July 2012.Yesterday evening, I read my "old" poems, those I wrote six, seven months ago. I saw there, in whole blue letters, our splitting apart. I sensed it somehow, from time to time, since the beginning. The first "evidence" of that realization is the first page of another notebook, which I think (I hope?) rests henceforth somewhere in what was our appartment. I was almost accepting, resigned -- almost -- at least I had already traversed alone much of the pain of abandonment. I fought, but there was nothing to do: her feelings weren't there and she simply didn't want to have any for me.I could have understood this breakup, or at least get over it, keeping close the person who still was the best friend I had, opening my eyes on the mistakes and re-building myself in a hopefully better way. I was willing to bear the whole responsibility in the failure of our couple and to take, even if it wasn't for her anymore, the appropriate measures. I was willing to list
The EndVanquishedCrushedBrokenAbasedBustedDestroyedMortifiedCrippledFracturedShatteredTrampledOnTornApartWornOutThe End.
Ideality -- From Plato to HegelHow to make sense of the world around? The diversity of objects, of people, of shades?For Plato, they are but the material realization of Ideas: the changing, imperfect, illusory world we see and experience is but a mere and poor copy of an invisible, unchanging world of Ideas. What do red apples, red blood and a red carpet share? Red-ness, the Idea of red, something eternal, pure, immaterial that exists in the world of ideas and is embodied, imperfectly, in such diverse things as apples, blood or carpets. Similarly, an apple is merely the imperfect realization of the Apple, some perfect kind of fruit. Because it is real, any concrete thing is imperfect, perishable, accidental. But because it borrows from the shape you can get the Idea of the Apple in any apple. Looking for perfection, for stability, for eternity, Plato argues this is the world we should care about, the only meaningful one.And this powerful idea was a long lasting one. Some religions built on that to justify
Shattered figurineShattered figurine:Vermilion tears run awayFrom your heart pristine!